Friday, December 31, 2010

Random...thing...of the day New Years Eve: Lady Gaga


To commemorate how bizarre, fucked up, strange, transmographied this year has been I decided there wasn't anyone better to represent that than Lady Gaga. Yeah I know a lot of people say she's got a dick but I've seen the uncensored version of the "Telephone" music video and trust me, she does not. So Happy New Year and all that bullshit, honestly it was a shit year for me and a lot of other people so I'm happy to see it go. I am however very thankful for my family and friends who have stuck by me in this difficult time, I am hopeful for new and awesome prospects of the upcoming year. So get drunk, get stoopid or whatever the kids call it these days and wake up hungover the next day just to realize its just like any other day, you'll just have to remember to stop writing a 10 on the date every time you write it, I always do that and it messes with me until about February...

Friday, December 24, 2010

Random Hot Chick Christmas Eve: Miranda Kerr


Merry Christmas people, not saying happy holidays because I don't do "PC", yule tide greetings and such and things. 

Happy Hellidays, this ones just cuz: Olga Kurylenko

My insomnia and watching the all Russian movie The Assassin Next Door Staring Olga made me want to share a photo of her. Also F.Y.I. she is a much better actress in foreign films because she isn't just eye candy, this girl can act and speak 3 languages fluently and intelligence is sexy, add a hot body and its doubly so. 

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Random Hot Chick of the day:Vida Guerra


This was my attempt at the requested "women with curves", all I gotta say is, dat assss...

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Monday, December 20, 2010

Tron: Legacy Reviewed


Alright so after a few mishaps in planning I made it to a Tron Legacy showing in IMAX 3D. First let me just say this was my first movie in the new 3D format and also the only one so far I think was improved by it, but I'll explain that later.



*Spoiler alert!* If you haven't seen the movie yet then don't read this review it contains critical plot exploits.

Tron Legacy had some of the most amazing and advanced CG and 3D graphics I have ever seen with live action actors, the graphics were so crisp and clean and fast paced it was honestly hard for my eyes to keep up at some points. Disney pulled out all the stops here, the original Tron literally looks like it was shot and thrown together by a college student with a camera and final cut pro. The transition from Flynn discovering the grid and creating CLU and his disappearance followed by his son's troubled youth and menacing adulthood was done very well.  Bruce Boxleitner played Alan the adopted father figure for Sam, although for some reason I kept thinking he was Michael Douglas. Olivia Wilde played Quorra, the last of the ISO's and Flynn's apprentice, and she did a brilliant job in doing so, her character was fun but serious with a line like "My favorite is Jules Vern, do you know him?" "yes" "what's he like?!?!" made the entire audience laug.Garrett Hedlund gave a fair performance as Sam Flynn, with the smart but dangerous hero attitude, with a bit of Kevin Flynn's snarky spite for his own company.

Once Sam Flynn is brought into the grid by his own doing via a page (who the f uses pagers...80's) that was believed to be sent by his father, the world seems to be a little confused between the original Tron and The Matrix. Several scenes seem borrowed yet unique in their own light. While Tron predates The Matrix by 17 years the idea of people being "programs" is very similar. Tron Legacy however introduced different environments than the first film as well as new vehicles, Quorra's tumbler-esque vehicle was exceptionally cool with the added ability to inflate its tires larger to go "off grid" to Flynn's Batcave like hideout.



The film has some underlying concepts that I'am not sure everyone will pick up on; such as that Flynn creates CLU, in his own image and tells him to create the perfect world, so in a way in the grid, Flynn is a god. In creating CLU in his image and being a man he is therefore with his own imperfections, and in his relentless pursuit of perfection he destroys all that he does not see fit. However CLU cannot create new "programs" he can only delete or re-purpose them, so he is only a god in that he can destroy, making him a sort of Satan allegory. Also since CLU is part of Flynn and seeming dark side of him, the alternative of the Christian story of Lucifer (pick your name for him) where in the good (god) is cast out and the Devil becomes ruler of the land.

These pathos are subtle throughout the movie as the main focus is set on Sam and Kevin's rekindled father son relationship. This I felt was done very well as there is chemistry between Bridges and Hedlund and the story enhances a sense of pride and admiration that Sam has for his father, and the love that Kevin has for his son is evident.


Olivia Wilde as Quorra was like a stylized huntress, dressed in the sleek and sexy latex lighted tron suit with  feminine accents like exposed shoulders and a skortlike dress an combat boots. Olivia's intensity can be felt throughout the entire film all the while she presents the type of spunky cool chick who can hang with the guys personality. Quorra is willing to give her life at any time for Sam or Kevin and she is a worthy adversary but also like Leeloo from the Fifth Element she needs help too. You can't help but like her despite the lack of quality lines for her character, I suppose it also helps that Olivia is incredibly easy on the eyes.


Probably one of the defining factors in Tron Legacy is the soundtrack, it was composed and mixed by famed musical masterminds Daft Punk. The music gives the movie intensity that would otherwise be lost with anything less. I've had the soundtrack for about a month prior to seeing the film, and in listening to it I could imagine the grid, which gives Daft Punk enormous kudos for creating a sound that you can imagine a world for, its a tough trick to pull off.

Lastly I said I would explain why 3D actually improved this movie, the reason being is that Tron is set in a virtual reality and heavily accented with neon blue, white and orange and plenty of exploding digital programs that throw debris at the screen. While the seating my friends and I had in the theater wasn't preferable and some of the effects came out of focus due to the theater being set up like an amphitheater, the ones that really counted did. It added to the experience of the movie without overtaking it and making it completely about 3D.

All in all I did like the movie and I liked the characters and loved the graphics and presentation of the combination of them all. What was lacking however was story, some events just seemed too predictable, like you had already seen the movie somehow. That and several plot points were left out that could have been much better written and brought more intensity to the film as a whole, rather it seemed as if it was a set up for sequels or just poor writing. Some things I thought could have been added or done better; the genocide of the ISO's, Sam and Quorra being more involved with each other, less of Kevin Flynn's "80's talk" lines like "Radical man", "check it out", I felt like I was watching The Big Lebowski at times. So after all of that I give the movie a solid 8 out of 10, it is visually fascinating, it has heart and is a fun movie to watch with friends. However $18.95 for an IMAX 3D ticket is pretty overpriced to me, though it was worth it for the experience. With over $200 million spent to make it and already $50 million made in the first weekend, there is no doubt this will be one of if not the highest grocing films in America this year and possibly internationally as well.

Random Hot Chick of the day: Hayden Panettiere

Side note, before you say pedo, she is 21, she just played a teenager in Heroes.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Somewhere a clock is ticking..



Every time someone mentions the future, to me it seems agonizing. As if staying here, alive, on this planet for an extended period of time, a lifetime, would be like a prison sentence. I don't know what I'm hoping to find or achieve that will change my outlook, perhaps I can't, I don't know for sure, but if I don't find a reason soon, it may be time to leave.

Random Hot Chick of the day: Abigail Clancy

Saturday, December 18, 2010

That boi needs therapy



The Avalanches - 'Frontier Psychiatrist'

TV-Hat



Here's the tv ad for the previous post, I really want to know what sane person would want this.

Do you want to look like a complete tool at the beach?

Really? I thought this type of stuff only happened in bad 80's movies. I just saw a commercial for this ridiculous product aptly named "tv hat", its a hat with a screen that connects to your ipod to watch movies or...your self worth disappear. 

"Childhood Obesity" Rant



I've heard a lot recently about people saying there is a problem in this country with "childhood obesity", they aren't saying "oh johnny is a little chubby" no they're talking about full on bed ridden fat kids. What I don't understand is, ALL OF IT! Ok first, these are kids, they haven't even been alive that long, how do they get that fat that quick? Is this all an exaggeration? I mean how is this even a problem? I'll tell you how, bad parenting. Time after time I see this parent or this nutritionist attacking the fast food industry and wanting some kind of avant guard battle royale against McDonalds or Wendy's. If your kid is really that fat, here's our solution, stop fucking feeding them bad food! Change their diet, you're the parent dipshit, you have that capability. If fatty can't walk up the stairs at the elementary school then feed him nothing but celery and salad for 3 months. That's an exaggeration but the point is clear, this is a non-existent problem invented by people who want to avoid the real issue, they can't control their damn kids. I mean it isn't like these kids have bank accounts (rich asshole kids with credit/debit cards don't count) and can go to mcdonalds or wingstop on their own. It just pisses me off that things like this get considered "an epidemic" in this country, its pathetic that more people die in America from eating themselves to death than anything else. While countries like Ethiopia battle starvation, disease, and natural disaster.

Video full of...art..yeah that's it

Random Hot Chick of the day: Miranda Kerr


Catholicism, she's doin' it right.

Friday, December 17, 2010

The Website is down

If you've seen the Youtube video's for the series "The website is down" you will appreciate these powerpoint mock ups of Chip's "Sales Plan" powerpoint slides. 



Ad Fail


Ok so I was going to make this mock internet pop-up ad, and it was going to be funny, what I saw in my head was hilarious trust me on this. However since my laptop likes to fail when I get into fancy editing and whatnots in Photoshop this is as far as I got, which is not funny, looks like a 5th grader put it together and has no graphical quality whatsoever. But I'm posting it anyway out of my frustration at my laptops lack of video processing power and also lack of awesomness.

**Donations for components for new desktop build now being accepted**

Random Hot Chick of the day: Amanda Braun

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Random Hot Girl of the Day: Melanie Iglesias


Melanie was the voted winner of Maxim magazines Hometown Hotties competition for 2010.

Tron: Legacy

Tron Legacy releases in theaters tonight at midnight, I'm going with a few friends that invited me to go to the midnight screening in 3D. I can't wait because this movie looks amazing visually and the soundtrack by Daft Punk sounds badass so the combination should be pretty much awesome.

Christmas light bondage?


So I just woke up and got on the twitters and found out that apparently, Christmas light bondage, is a thing....people amaze me sometimes in their odd fantasies.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Random Hot Girl of the day: Jennifer Lamiraqui

Jennifer Lamiraqui is an exotic French lingerie/bikini model in France

Side tatts

So..yeah..ribcage/side tattoos are probably the sexiest kind on a girl in my opinion, much better than tramp stamps anyway, not that I'm knocking all you ladies out there with them, but it does make you a lil diiirty, and thats just fine with me lol.

One more for good measure.

And one of the aforementioned dirty girls
But I do like her wing tatts..


Just one-a those days


Woke up feeling like this today, irritated and can't really put my finger on why. So F-You world I'm going to the gym for some self improvement/body punishment.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Hoyo!!

Anyone who has seen the cartoon "Rejected" will know what this is...

Random Hot Asian #5...


Sadly this poor girl is nameless at the moment as her image doesn't tell her name...seems like kind of disappointing for the last in the series doesn't it? Hmm poor hot hot nameless asian girl... 

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Work in progress

I'm not really sure where I'm at lately, like I'm lost in some kind of nightmare. Like I'm trapped in the body of some alien who's lost his home and everything he knew, and just wants to adapt, but can't. I try to connect with the world but end up failing each time. Choking on my own words like a buffoon yet I have reactions that are only symbiotic to someone who's walked on a very different path than the rest of society. I just want to be normal, whatever the hell that is, or perhaps I don't seeing as when I read commentary from so-called "normal people" they seem more insane than I do.

I received a phone call from my college that went to voicemail, they were asking if I was interested in enrolling to the Bachelor program. I am interested in continuing my education, but right now to be honest I don't think I could meet the requirements for school. Lately I just feel dumb, perhaps its the lack of intellectual stimulation, or my new shut-in lifestyle, I'm not sure. Indecisiveness has been a plague to me as of late, even down to simple things like getting my oil changed and the high mileage overhaul. What do you do with those feelings of hesitation and reprehensible thoughts?

Lately more than before I'm noticing how every one of my friends is in a committed relationship, marriage or otherwise, and I envy them. All I had ever wanted was to find someone who could love me for me flaws and all and I the same for her, marry them and start a life together and for a very brief time I did have that life. It felt as though I was untouchable..but also that things were going too well and that something terrible was about to happen. And it did. The recoil of my divorce has seemingly not dissipated even 2 years later, I have recovered in several aspects but I still find myself waking from dreams of us being back together that felt so real. In many ways I just want my family back, I want to be able to see my son every day and I'm willing to deal with all the pain that would come with that. But I know that will never happen and one day I will have to explain to my son why daddy and mommy aren't together, and that breaks me up inside. So then here I am, barely 24 years old, a divorce' and a single father, I am without a doubt...damaged goods. It's hard to keep someone interested in you that is single with no kids once you've told them you do have a son and previous marriage, I might as well say I have aids. I am ready to start a new relationship, if I could find someone. I don't hold a high opinion of myself, but I do think I deserve someone who wont use me, fuck me over etc. But as I said before, Im the master of poor decisions. And it's with that in mind that I end up deciding not to look or put myself out there. It's hard though too not having any single friends to go out with to meet people, not that it's necessary but when you go somewhere with that intent, sitting by yourself eyeing the crowd just makes you look like a creep. There are alternatives, online dating and such, I have browsed the sites but never acted on contacting a girl I've found there. Probably for fear of the picture either not being her at all or from 5 years and 180lbs ago, lets be honest if you are on online dating then you are shopping for that "perfect fit" by profile pic and info.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Zombie Jesus

Just had a thought, so Christians and Catholics believe that Jesus came back from the dead after 3 days...so....doesn't that make him a zombie? Zombie Jesus FTW, that should be a movie.

Chat with Otep



You know I was very tired and very near sleep last night at about 2:50am when I spotted a Twitter update from Otep Shamaya for a uStream live video chat with Otep herself. So naturally I couldn't pass this up because, if you know nothing of Otep she is a very intelligent and passionate person, and it's so awesome that she offers opportunities like this for us fans to actually chat back and forth with her. This time was particularly cool because it wasn't pre-announced so there weren't 1000+ people in the chat room all bombarding the board with questions and annoyances, it was just about 45-60 instead. I actually was able to talk back and forth with Otep via chat and she answered several of my questions as well as commented on my answers to her questions which was great. Outside of seeing a band or two for quick glimpses at a show I haven't ever been able to have that personal of a commentary with an artist that I am such a fan of. She briefly spoke about the upcoming new album and how she may use a fans instrumentation with her lyrics, as well as the different possibilities of covers she may do in the future. She asked what song of The Doors we thought she should cover, and she rather liked my submission of "The End" which was cool. So anyhow the chat lasted until about 4am and then I tried to go to sleep but of course my insomnia prevented me, so I brewed some coffee and am listening to The Muse until its acceptable to be loud again, then I can get ready for the day and get my ass to the bank before the state decides this check they sent me is void. Cheers.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

INSANITY!


Ok so I've been trying for a long time to get myself into a mindset to get fit and bulk up, but time after time I fail, due to lazyness or lack of motivation. But to be fair I haven't given it full effort, so I end up staying skinny and looking the exact same as I did a few years ago, which I guess is good because I'm not fat by any means but I'm also not fit.

So since I watch a lot of late night tv I run across infomercials periodically, and being that they are pitching to the lazy bastards out there just watching tv 24/7 they like to show workout programs.

 The one they happened to be plugging this particular night was the Insanity workout program by Shaun Thompson (Shaun T) a health/fitness trainer. His other releases are "hip-hop abs", "Shaun T's fit club" and "Rockin body" his bio can be found here. They advertise this workout as the toughest workout routine etc etc, the part I liked is that you don't need any additional equipment, just you. Now usually these things blow by me and I don't take a second look, but I thought "hey I'm not doing anything right now to improve myself" and the claim is that in 60 days you will be in peak physical condition if you give it everything you've got.

Like I said I usually don't get pulled into stuff like this but since I am a ruthless internet pirate,

I'm able to for-go the $120.00 price tag plus $24.95 shipping and get the entire dvd collection free of charge. So my plan is to start Monday, as the schedule is Monday-Saturday and my end date for the 60 day period is January 17th. My goal is not to lose weight (because I would float away if I did) but to gain lean muscle mass and hopefully attain that washboard ab look. I am hoping that it is as hard as advertised, I watched a little of the warm-up and it looks like it is pretty intense so thats exciting. Since I didn't have to pay for it I have nothing to lose only to gain, my other hope is to bring up my mood by working out every day, having a goal in mind is positive and a part of my new thought model so I am hopeful that this will help improve things for me. Cheers.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

You lost interest
I lost interest
Let's say our goodbye's

Friday, November 12, 2010

I'm an American

So where are we?
injustice is justice these days
the rich still go to the bank every tuesday
the poor still stress and fret
Wars are raging and the dead still pile up
Millionares run for office and problems remain unchanged
bankers pocket your money and you are nonethewiser
secrets held from your ears like whispers in a dark room
fed a dream that can never become reality
chasing money so we can buy shit we don't need
drowning in debt only to be pushed further under by those who lend their hand fiscally
"I have a dream" just means "fuck you whitey"
they say we are free but who knows what freedom is
changing the books behind closed doors
telling the public what the new law is when they had no vote
democracy is hypocrisy and freedom isn't free
ain't no such thing as a free lunch

So where are we?
living with our heads in the clouds
not caring whats below
endless reckless decadence
while children starve and die across the world we choose what "value meal" sounds the best
our heroes return shunned, battered and dismembered, forgotten
we care not for new laws that restrict our lives, only what celebrity forgot to wear panties
education is no longer priority
what does talent have to do with fame?
falling fast and fancy free we are the last generation with common sense
fear mongering and marketing ploys dictate our subconscious ideals
tv and magazines tell us what beauty is instead of letting us discover it for ourselves
prescription drugs fill our bathroom cabinets while we're told plants are illegal
that which does not line their pockets will be demonized
on the brink of worldwide war yet deaf dumb and blind
So where are we...
  

Friday, November 5, 2010

Things about TV/Movies that are inaccurate/stupid

Ok so before I get started I just want to point out that I do know that movie and television effects and writing techniques are made for entertainment purposes and are not meant to represent reality, however with the increasing awareness of the general public these gimmicks are increasingly annoying. 


The entertainment industry puts in effects and scenarios into movies and tv shows that are simply..inaccurate. I'll list off a few that bug me particularly.


1. Guns: Anyone who has shot a firearm in real life knows that guns are much louder, powerful, harder to aim, and have limited ammo capacity. Often in the entertainment business they need to play this down in order to suit their needs. We see people who are not of the body type or strength that it would take to maneuver the weapon that they are holding, for example; Mila jovavich in the Resident Evil series often has twin .45 caliber pistols or a .357 magnum revolver, the kickback of each of these weapons is enough to throwback her wrist and hand with each shot, however you see her fire in rapid succession entire magazines with each shot having pin point accuracy. This is not impossible but very difficult and a feat that some of the most proficient and well trained professional shooters are capable of. But all of that being said, for the sake of the character and the story it wouldn't make much sense for Alice' character to be a bad shot would it, it would make her less badass and weaken the intensity of the movie. The second problem with guns in movies/tv is ammo, often times a character will fire more bullets than the specific gun they are holding is capable of firing in one clip. This might not bother some people because they can assume "ok well they reloaded at some point when the camera wasn't on them", ok for some, sure. But when a character has a weapon such as a .38 revolver that has a max capacity of 5 rounds and they fire 12 rounds without reloading, thats annoying. Or in movies like Underworld where Selene has twin Beretta 92FS's and seems to have infinite bullets (and fully automatic) when the max capacity is 15 round magazines unless extended clips are used which they weren't in the movie. Perhaps not everyone notices these things but I certainly do, I count how many rounds fired from each persons gun and evaluate the accuracy of it. I do like it when a movie can properly execute how many bullets are fired and when a character needs to reload in real time.


2. Blood: A lot of times blood is just thrown around and the audience is just supposed to accept whatever consistency, direction, spatter pattern etc that is used. The horror genre is the biggest offender here, particularly with stab victims. The blood used in horror movies is of a consistency that is closer that of already coagulated blood (from an already dead body used for a fresh victim) and it just pours out like jelly from a jar, thats annoying. I like shows like Dexter that are pretty dead on (pun intended) to the real deal, being that he is a blood spatter analyst it would receive a lot of negative feed back from the fans if they didn't 


3. Cars: This one is less of an inaccuracy and more just a personal irritation. Old school muscle cars are used in a lot of action movies and rightfully so, they possess the stance and presence needed for movies like that. The problem I have is that a lot of times these cars get destroyed, I'm a car lover and particularly of the 60's-70's muscle car variety so seeing one of these bad boys get blown up or crashed or dropped off a cliff is much more heart wrenching than if the main character dies to me. This is because that is a real and tangible car, whether it is a kit car or not you don't really know but an example is in Iron Man when Tony Stark falls through the floor of his multimillion dollar villa and smashes a 1967 Shelby Cobra, which I cringed at, I would have much rather seen him hit the the Saleen S7, which is a beautiful car but worth far less in my opinion. Oh another amazing car that was destroyed in the name of film was Eleanor the 1967 Ford Mustang GT 500 from Gone in 60 Seconds that was ultimately crushed, sad face. 


4. To be Continued...

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Vocal Entropy

Have you ever come to a stand still in your life and just stopped and asked yourself "what am I doing here?" not like you are confused as to where you are but in reference to your progress as a human being, as an adult. Lately my answer to that question is "not enough". It feels like I should be further along, I should have my MBA, I should have a $100,000+ a year job, I should own a home, a dog, whatever it takes to feel..normal..whatever that is. It just seems like I am climbing a hill with no apex, a stairmaster with no off switch, always moving but never going anywhere. In short, I don't feel I have accomplished much in life, moreover I have failed cataclysmic-ally. I've been receiving complements lately and more than just from my mother and it is nice to hear and appreciated, yet I can't help but feel it is undeserved. This lies with my need to become more positive and less negative, but that begs the question how to flip the poles?

Admittedly I have not done much to improve myself since the negativity post. However a break did finally come, via a friend I may have a job, which he assures me is a terrible one. But that doesn't really sway my opinion nor need for work, my schedule prior to being laid off was filled with work, 6 day weeks at 10 or more hours a day. Work is how I fill the void, it is how I cope. Honestly if I could have my own office separate from my home and could be paid to do the things I already do (market analysis, product review, photo editing, writing etc.) I could easily put in 16 hour days, however I don't know how to make that happen, but it would be interesting however improvable. It seems I always end up at the same conclusion; my ambition far exceeds my talents.

Anyway, seeing my friends and family succeed and be happy in life makes me jealous, which is wrong but it doesn't excuse the fact that I am. I see people with their husbands and wives and children and think, why couldn't my life have gone that way? Instead I am fighting a never ending battle with someone who I at one point wanted to share the rest of my life with, what kind of vicious fiend would ever wish that kind of torment on anyone? It's a plaguing thought, yet I am not able to speak of this to anyone (however posting it on public forum) because it would make me appear to still be attached to my ex. However the problem with a divorce when children are involved is that children are involved. So not only has one party destroyed the others life but the life of an innocent child, and depending the situation but in most cases the father pays the mother child support until the child is 18. Meaning that they are intrinsically involved in one another's lives up until that time, financially and emotionally for the child, exchanging custody and visitation. This for me is like being in a room with no windows and one door which is welded shut with crack at the bottom, I want to be involved in my sons life and I want to raise him, he means everything to me, but all I can do is pass notes under the door.  I am trying to make the best of things by making the time I have with my son count, he knows that I love him and he loves me too which is a feeling that I can't describe.

I decided a while ago, perhaps 11 or so months ago that I will remain single until I think that I would want to get into anything serious. I don't believe that its fair to anyone to get involved in my situation without fully understanding it. Perhaps if I can by chance run into that perfect girl, what are odds of that. But I need to find a way to be happy just being me, I find that I placed too much reliance of my own happiness into significant others in the past, and then when things would end it made it that much harder to move on and find someone else because I would feel that I wasn't able to be happy.. Which isn't true, however I have always been bad at expressing emotion, even making an upward inflection in my voice seems trying at times. I am not sure what it will take to get me back to a feeling of happiness, or if that is even possible, maybe just being ok with things would be a step in the right direction.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Charcoal petals


So much stolen, unable to reclaim
scorched requiems and pieces of tattered memories remain
they embrace in the shadow of a dream
He wakes in cold sweat and bitter remorse of the former
two worlds un-adjoined
to hell they ride

Blistering heated wind upon her face
tearing flesh from bone
leaving nothing but a blackened soul
once in a love so pure now requited
death is all she breeds now

His hemispheres are dual and separate
in wake and dream they fight the poles
opposing ideals trading ordinance
dedicated to the insane
unable to turn, scorned but forever faithful

His senses fall like autumn leaves
staring blankly into the mirror
this is no Johnny and June story
Her love is dead

Halloween/Slootpacalypse




Bonfires burning bright,
Pumpkin faces in the night,
I remember halloween.
Dead cats hanging from poles,
Little dead are out in droves,
I remember halloween brown leaved vertigo,
Where skeletal life is known,
I remember halloween this day anything goes.
Burning bodies hanging from poles
I remember halloween,
Halloween, halloween, halloween, halloween.
Candy apples and razorblades,
Little dead are soon in graves,
I remember halloween this day anything goes,
Burning bodies hanging from poles,
I remember halloween, halloween, halloween,
halloween halloween, halloween, halloween, halloween.

The Misfits- Halloween

This song always comes to mind when October rolls around each year, and its lyrics hold pretty true at least in a sort of voyeuristic way. Everyone knows, the stores especially, that most everyone delves into their darker side in the month of October in decorations, attitude and at least one day, wardrobe. Tv stations play old horror movies in marathon form, Hollywood releases a few new horror flicks and stores are flooded with witches, pumpkins, black cats and skeletons. This is however my favorite “holiday” because for just one night out of the year, you don’t have to be yourself and you can be whatever you’ve dreamt up. I also like it because it shows a side of people that they keep hidden the rest of the year, and as adults there is usually drinking involved so inhibitions are even lower.Oh and theres also the whole deal of how girls can use it as an excuse to dress as slutty and sexy as they want with supposedly no repercussions, also earning the holiday the nickname Slootpacolypse, you can use that if you want, I stole it. It’s fun to pretend, but what if you were yourself on Halloween night and the rest of the time you were pretending? Liberating I would think.

I saw an article reposted by a friend from highschool that said Chupacabra’s are just coyotes with scabies…so that sucks, I wonder when they will demystify the Bigfoot, which really just sounds like a hairy guy with abnormally sized feet, meh.  




Wednesday, October 20, 2010

"Rape me, my friend.."

You know how it seems like when you were a kid that your parents were stuck in a particular era of music while the world raged forward with newness and awesome? I think that is happening to me now, I've kind of stopped getting into as much new music, and more or less sticking with artists that I like from the past, I do every once in a while find some new artists that I like though. But for the majority I just like to listen to grunge rock and metal from the 90's and follow those bands through today. It isn't that I'm not open to new music, I am, and I get excited when I find a new artist that I like or didn't know about before. Anyhow I just find that I'am able to connect with 90's music more than the new stuff, so I guess that is the time period I will be stuck in while my son grows up and will eventually ask why. Kind of how I grew up listening to The Who and Yes and Pink Floyd with my dad. Looking back, listening to those bands super loud with my Dad on his record player through those big wooden 70's style speakers in the basement of our house back in Kansas were some of the best memories even though I was so young. So perhaps that is part of maturity when you know what you like and it holds true even when you're getting left behind as everything progresses. I'am ok with that, there is a lot of good music that came from the 90's despite some critic's views, but I look to Nirvana, Pearl Jam, The Goo Goo Dolls, The Smashing Pumpkins, Green Day, Blink 182, The Offspring, Eddie Vedder(yes I am aware that Vedder aka Edward Louis Severson III was also vocalist for Pearl Jam), Korn, Staind, Cold, Oasis..I could go on, but those are some of the bands that wrote and performed songs that stick with me through today and that is just that decade. I really like classic rock as well, it just puts me in a mental state of euphoria, perhaps thats due to my past as well but never mind that. Cheers.
R.I.P. Kurt, if you would of just stuck around a little longer, we wouldn't have trash like Bieber..

Art N' Stuff

Ok so I watched a comedian/artist named Bo Burnham this past week on Comedy Central and one of the songs that I really liked was called "Art is Dead" you can watch it here. In the song he talks about how those of us that grow up to be actors and musicians and comedians etc are often that kid who cries for attention in class. Secretly feeding on that attention and growing from it, he sings about how selfish it is for him as an artist/comedian to as it were "put my name in lights" and how nothing seems to be original anymore. He even at one point says "we're rolling in dough while Carlin rolls in his grave", that part struck a chord with me because yes you do see a lot of copying of jokes in the comedy industry, it just happens but also because George Carlin was a great comedian and realist and I can imagine that being a realistic analogy of his reaction to new comedy and art in general these days. But I think that we're just about to the apex of that era, that we are just teetering on the edge of creative lulls and about to take a dive into a new and exciting realm of artistic expression. Maybe we will get to experience something like when Andy Worhol first came on the scene.



Who knows for sure, but I would like to think that we will get out of this slump of dull movies, drowned out music and uninspired work. I'd like to go to an art show to get a refresh and perhaps some inspiration of my own. It's been forever since I've done anything remotely artistic, I've done a few sketches here and there and few photoshopped images but nothing really big or involving paint and canvas.  I'm not the best artist, far far far from in fact but it does make me feel good to create. I wish that I was linked to some people who have the ability to set up large projects and just create whatever they feel inside, like Linkin Park did when they created the album art for the album Meteora.
Anyhow, I'm writing a lot tonight because for the most part I didn't sleep from Saturday until Tuesday morning and then I finally passed out and woke up around 5pm. So now I'm going to be stuck in the cycle of not sleeping at night and possibly during the day, or I'll have to make it through all of tomorrow and then sleep at night to get myself back on track. That's been a huge problem for me being on unemployment, I don't have a schedule anymore, and, I have insomnia, so no schedule + insomnia = awful. But in the spirit of not being negative, the brightside is that I am the most creative at night, so I can think of a project I might want to pursue or at least accomplish getting some writing done.

In my spare time (which is all the time lately) I watch videos on youtube, not like "ZOMG cutest kitteh ever!!!" kind but the vlogs and channels from the people who are actually putting in some real time and effort into making new content. And the majority of those people primarily live in the greater Los Angeles area and their goal ultimately is that their talent will be noticed and they will make it, to have their own show or be in a movie etc. This is kind of the new age version of "move to LA and become and actor" because while they are going to auditions and looking at getting into the industry they are doing themselves a favor by getting on camera and being comfortable with that first. I think it's pretty cool that we can do this, and upload it for free to see if people like it, negating the need for test audiences, sets etc. I often think to myself damn that would cool to do, but then I think well I'm too quiet and not really the actor type so probably not a good idea for me. But in addressing my negativity and limiting myself based on fear of failure and rejection am I putting damper on my potential? I'm not sure, but being in the spotlight probably isn't the place for me anyhow, I'd feel like Michael Cera or something but inside wanting to be Brad Pitt kind of a complex. Anyway, before this becomes any more incoherent I think I'll stop for a bit.